Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Friday, May 23, 2014

Inspirational Friday

There are moments of uncertainty in our lives everyday. Being a control freak, I dread these moments because it leaves me incapable of predicting what will happen next. Recently, however, I've learned to get acquainted with (embrace is a strong word) these moments because as I grow up they have been, and will continue to be, ever-present in my life.

I believe that talking about our fears makes them less scary. I consider myself to be an introvert (with occasional extrovert tendencies) which means that I'm a serial thinker. I tend to take existing problems and create bigger - or worse - more problems from one single issue. Luckily for me, Jesse continues to challenge me by taking my hand, pulling me out of my cozy and secure metaphorical box and forcing me to face my fears.

And talking it out does help. This probably seems a little middle school but there's something so powerful about sharing the burden with someone else. It's a win-win situation. I feel better because I've verbalized things that have only ever been thoughts and Jesse feels better because he gave me his time and a listening ear and voila! his girlfriend is back to normal.This is obviously works the other way around too, but being a girl (not to mention one who is currently PMSing), I feel the need to share my problems and create a team bond out of it.

So in spirit of all this, I'm going to share what my current fears are:

1. I just quit a job that I hadn't even started at yet. You see, something in my gut told me that I shouldn't work there and after a few days of mulling and two serious conversations with Jesse, I resigned. So I'm now jobless and praying that my interview works out next week. That brings me to my next fear...

2. Money. This one is a bit of a surprise because I am a savvy saver. I even spent spring semester in an awful night class learning about personal finance! Buuut now that I live on my own and have to buy my own groceries, pay bills, do laundry (those quarters add up), I find myself struggling. This fear was heightened after my recent job resignation because after my paycheck next week, I'm not sure when the next one will be...

3. My job interview is set for 1:00pm on the 28th and I kind of need this job. *Cue sweaty palms*

4. I was cast for an MTV show which will be airing this summer and I'm nervous to see how it is going to play out. (I'll be blogging heavily about that later on because the show, titled 'Virgin Territory' is what this blog is all about!)

Phew! I could probably go on and on but part of this fear revealing is to just focus on the main problems...not freak out about every sub-problem that could come from everything. Instead of creating a tree of sub-problems, focus on the thick branches towards the base. Tackle those, and the little problems won't even exist.